April 2009
10 posts
And still…seriously has no REAL friends.
I’m so glad that i have you guys.
Really….
not.
I’m possibly the most loneliest person on this planet.
At least that’s how I feel.
Everyone has turned their back on me
I’ve made wrong decisions…I’m a human.
People make mistakes…
Be there for me….
Every time I close my eyes I thank the lord that I’ve got you And you’ve got me too And every time I think of it I pinch myself cuz I don’t believe it’s true That someone like you loves me too
<3
i love you. even though you make me innnnnsaneeeee.
The lights of this strange city are shinin’ But they don’t hold no fascination for me I try to find the bright side, baby But everywhere I look Everywhere I turn You’re all I see
i can't lose you.
No one can make me cry Make me laugh Make me smile Or drive me mad like he does It’s like a curse that is the cure Better or worse, one thing’s for sure It’s real love and I don’t know what I’d do If I lost it
March 2009
23 posts
“Best Friends Means I Pulled The Trigger; Best Friends Means You Get What You...”
– Taking Back Sunday
He’s been THERE for me. And He’s coming all the way here to be HERE for me. :] I love him.
[Her and Him Are the Reason I Am Still Here.]
My bestest friend in the whole wide world is coming tomorrow. And we are going to do splendid things. :] Be jealous.
[Her and Him keep me going.]
When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I’m with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you.
Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all -...
there are only a few times i like my heart to race.
1.) when i’m excited.
2.) when you kiss me.
3.) when i take photographs
4.) when i hear a new favorite song.
5.) when you look my way.
but none of those are happening right now. :[ so heart? are you listening? stop racing.
You're going off a CLIFF
Stephanie:
i hate boys. and girls.
i only like you.
Kelsey:
i pretty much only like you.
Stephanie:
i really just want to push everyone else off a cliff
Kelsey:
and johnny. lol
yeah.
Stephanie:
yup until he makes you mad
then i'll push him off a cliff
Kelsey:
i dont know if he will. lol
he kinda just takes my crap.
haha
Stephanie:
he's a boy. it's in the dna.
Kelsey:
lol
Stephanie:
he will be pushed off a cliff sometime.
all the people can just stay down there. and when we want them we'll throw down a rope.
Kelsey:
haha ok
Stephanie:
like ,"ok you've behaved. you have earned 20 minutes of steph and kelsey time."
Kelsey:
for reall lol
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I’d swim across lake Michigan I’d sell my shoes I’d give my body to be back again In the rest of the room To be alone with you To be alone with you To be alone with you To be alone with you You gave your body to the lonely They took your clothes You gave up a wife and a family You gave your goals To be alone with me To be alone with me To be alone with me You went up on a tree To...
“if you don’t come to me, you’ll stay a distant memory”
i really despise worrying. it’s no fun at all. i wish there was a medicine that could stop you from worrying. instead, you have to take your mind off of it by doing silly little things like exercising or talking to your friends. but it all comes back to you worrying. geesh.
:]
i’ll be the bright side of your bad...
Dead ends and road blocks
Tough Times and Hard Knocks
Seems like you’re always wonderin’ why
You’re at the right place at the wrong time
Wheels movin’ but you feel stuck
Like you’re lifes spinnin’ in a big rut
When you’re out there running aorund on a wild goose chase
There’s a reason to keep believin’
God don’t make mistakes....
“See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But...”
February 2009
13 posts
“i can tell you my favorite part was after prom when we held hands on the bed in...”
Some guys just make me smile.
When they say things like that. :]
But all my thoughts go straight back to him.
When will that go away?
When will a day come that will not contain one single thought of you?
I can’t wait until that day.
I just want to feel the sand between my toes today.
It’s only 45 minutes away. to be content.
Not exactly happy but definitely at ease.
Waves crashing, hot sun on my skin…
Might take my mind off of everything for awhile.
Or I’ll just stay here. In bed.
Watching happy television couples.
Does anyone ever stay happy and in love forever, all the time?
out of sight. out of mind.
maybe for you; but for some reason
after all this time
i can’t forget you.
i want to move on.
i’m 1200 miles away, for goodness sakes.
and i do not even want you anymore…
but you forgot about me.
or maybe you’re just finally doing what i’ve asked [leave me alone.]
whatever it is…i still check my msgs. :\
i’ll...
S: I wanted to move on first. And it seems like he has. I mean it's good that he's left me alone...but Idk.
K: i think i know what you mean
S: I want him to be miserable. And I want to be happy before he can be.
10: 40 PM
S: And I'm not. I definitely don't want him back. But I want to be happy before him
K: yeah i know. because you deserve it and he doesnt.
S: yup.
K: i totally understand.
at least someone does.
i’m irresponsible.
i can’t handle a puppy.
she’s gone.
i didn’t even get to say goodbye.
goodbyes are hard.
…I’m lonely.
got my puppy.
SALLY. IS. A RUGGGRAATTT.
he didn’t email me on valentines day.
he must be moving on.
why does it bug me?
probably because i haven’t found anyone
to move on with…
it will be okay.
for me and my bestie.
first off, it’s raining.
i have a headache.
and it’s supposed to rain all day tomorrow.
can’t wait to get my puppy and see travis.
hopefully do something real fun with pjt.
maybe meet an air man of my own.
hahah. yeah, right.
my hearts too shattered to even flutter an inch.
i just kiss for fun these days.
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“God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can...
